Sunday, May 21, 2006

Bad Luck

It's been a week now but it feels like forever. There isn't any secret that I'm a net addict.

Well, I've done a temp job for the past week, 4 days actually. It was just a telemarketer job, asking ppl if they'll be attending a sales pitch disguised as a showcase from a MN computer manufacturer, whose name is made up of two last names. I feel slightly sorry for the ppl I managed to bluff convince to attend. Just slightly.

The job took four days, Tue to Fri and every single day I had to wake up early at 630 to follow my sis out for work. Then I would take two trains. For the first 2 days, my friend's fren picked us up from the station but later we both shared a cab. I had a great time working there though. Her frens were really fun to be with. I just wished I had friends like that in KL. Alas, things seldom work out as it is.

Also, something rather important this past week. On my first day after week, I went to meet my sis in MV and it was there where I lost my wallet. Yup, everything was lost, IC, driving license and the like. I was quite upset. Not because of the money but the hassle that I will have to go through now that I've lost most of my possessions, sigh. To make things worse, I immediately bumped into someone I loathe in MV. Talk about bad luck, sigh.

I got over the whole fiasco rather quick though cuz the next day, I told my colleagues during lunch and they were surprised cuz I didn't look the least bit upset. Well, I guess intrinsically I am a pre-disposed to be cheerful and happy go lucky. Somehow, knowing that, makes me happy and I would never wanna change that even though I've been accused of sometimes being too aloof for my own good.

So now I have to get a new copy of everything. Just made my police report earlier today. Currently, I don't have a job. Waiting for something else to come along I guess. Wish me luck!

PS. Me wrote this in a cyber cafe. It feels really awkward especially with the occasionally nosy idiot standing behind me reading my very very personal thought, hehe. I may keep it shorter from now on then.

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

It's Official

I think I will make Nicole Richie proud. Yup, just like everyone said, I've lost weight; 3 kg to be exact. To illustrate my surprise, let me tell you that I rubbed my eyes, stepped off the scale to check if there was an error before stepping on again. So yes, I have lost 3 kg.

Although the number 3 may not seem like a lot, it is absolutely different on a human body. Not to mention a very skinny human body to begin with. So now I look even more skeletal and my self-esteem just plunged to a new low. However, all hope is not lost. At this point, I think it can only go up so in a month or two, I think I will be back to my thin, but not bulimic thin self.

There's also another reason for writing tonight. I have announcement to make. I'm leaving back to KL tomorrow. That means no more boring updates after tonight, until I come back, which I have no idea when. So everyone will just have to bore themselves with something else yea. And that included myself too. I think I will buy myself a book to read while in KL so I don't jump off the balcony due to boredom.

Until then, everyone is encouraged to SMS or call me whenever they're free. I sure don't mind a familiar voice/text.

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Friday, May 12, 2006

At the Crack of Dawn

It's almost 6am and I'm still awake, hooray! Haha, feeling fresh as ever. I guess that nap I took earlier did the trick. Frankly I'm just tempted to stay up for as long as I feel like it but I suppose that would be quite a horrible idea, especially when my parents wake up and find me still up. They won't believe that I decided to rise early for today to enjoy the sunrise and the morning dew cuz, let's face it, the day I wake up before dawn is the day aliens invade the country and we'd all have to run for our lives.

I'm feeling happy. Not the substance induced kinda happy but you know, the natural non-booze and non-meth induced happy.

Don't know what else to say. Oh yea, going for a small gathering tonight. It's some old classmates. Kinda looking forward to it I guess. Hopefully it'll be great fun. For now, the future looks bright. I want this optimism to last as long as it can.

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Pic Update

Pictures taken right before I came back.





Looking at the pics, I do look quite happy...

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Fragmented Thoughts

I did the unthinkable, at 12am last night, I went to bed. That's a stark contrast to my previous nights where I slept bout 5 in the morning. Though I woke up almost as late, 1230pm. I think it must be true then. Ppl who are depressed tend to sleep more, and they don't feel like getting out of bed. Since I've successfully dragged myself out of bed, I must be recovering.

Anyway I was searching in my brain for a chemical substance to best describe my flighty, undecisive, mercurial self but couldn't. From my shallow knowledge of chemistry, I decided on Group 1, since well, they are pretty reactive. But for the life of me, I couldn't get past Potassium and Sodium. I know for certain the lower the it is in the group, the more reactive it will be but I just can't remember anymore. And it makes me sad, knowing my chemistry knowledge has deteriorated to this point. Knowledge for a lifetime eh, sigh.

Well sure, I could pick up a chemistry book and start reading but I think I should not. Chemistry doesn't seem to be in my future and I'd better not be living in the past. Don't look back right. If do look back, I'm afraid it'll be littered with regrets all the way to the present. So I better not turn around.

By the way, I've decided return to KL this weekend. Bout time I got really serious about a job and this things aren't looking too well here in Ipoh, I'd be wise to get away for awhile. Also, I left my facial cleanser there and it's about time I got myself a scrub, before things get out of control. I oredi have a few zits popping out here and then and I could do with a good wash.

On another note, it seems my new year resolution isn't quite working out so I've decided to make a new one. My new not-so-new year resolution is to be more modest, down to earth, less self-centred, less selfish vain, less arrogant and friendlier. If I succeed, I think I will be a better person. I used to be a lot nicer, empathetic, understanding and less mean. In short, I used to be a nice guy and for a start, I'd like to bring old loopy back.

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I can't live alone

Can't stand the distance
Can't dream alone
I can't wait to see you
I'm on my way home

I hear the wind
Call out your name
The sound that leads me
Home again

It's to you I'll always
I'll always return

*Admittedly I plagiarised this from somewhere*

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

I'm so kidding myself

I hate how I fool myself so easily. Willingly let myself be fooled. Well, time and time again, nothing good has come out of it. Maybe I read too much into things. And yes, I have this tendency to daydream and think of all the good things that could have happened. And yes, I'm big stupid fool who thinks like everyone else, he deserves to be happy.


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My Inner Devil

You have a warped sense of interior decorating and fucked up understanding of ergonomics.

PS. This is something I wanted to say but didn't, because I'm nice and nice ppl suffer deep down inside.

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Hunting Season

Well, since I'm kinda looking for a job these days I tot I'd write something related to job-seeking.

Some of you might know that I used to work for an international time keeper, which just a more sophisticated way of saying I used to hawk swatch watches. It was a very enjoyable job. Not something I wanna do my entire life but laid back enough that I had a comfortable short term job.

Anyway when you're 19, it's acceptable to be asked about your family background, what your parents do and so on. But it is obviously not acceptable when you're 25 and at your 126th job interview.

During the job interview, the HR Manager asked me all those. At this point I probably point out that I lie in my application form. Sure I may embellish certain things but mostly, I feel some information are too personal for my possibly future employer to know. Therefore I just leave them out and lie outright.

Since I wrote that my parents are retired, she asked me what my parents did for a living. Since I wanted to project that typical middle class Chinese family image and possibly invoke some empathy, I told her my mom is a homemaker (that's housewife for those unfamiliar).

HR: I didn't know a homemaker can actually retire *laughs*. Isn't that a lifetime job?

Me: *Shit* *Damn shit* *What the hell have I gotten myself into* Errrrrr, oh she always claims she's retired. Wanna just enjoy life. So we have to pick up after ourselves nowadays.

HR: Well, I always considered a homemaker to be the toughest job of all. It's the ultimate sacrifice a woman makes for her family. *drones on....*

Me: Yes yes, I agree *nods vigorously*.

Well, I got the job anyway. Guess it wasn't too obvious a fib.

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Monday, May 08, 2006

Hyper II

It's 3am again. And again, I just got home. You probably know what my next line would be. Yup, I went DOTA, again, hehe. This time, I went with my friend and his friends who admittedly, didn't know I was joining them. The awkward moment at the beginning aside, we got a long quite well. Exchanged pleasantries and did the "where are you now?" and "oh, i'm in (insert godforsaken place)". Insignificantly trivial information that one wipe off their brain the minute once farewell is said to each other.

Overall, I had a good day today. Became chauffeur for mommy dearest, drove her a short distance out of town. Since I had quite a fowl mood this afternoon when I woke up (yes, you read that right) I was less then thrilled to meet ppl.

Just as we were about to leave the house.

Me: I'm just gonna wait in the car afterwards. I don't want to go down and meet your friends.
Mom: But it'll probably take some time. Plus Auntie is quite the snail. Furthermore, we'll have to send her to her shop.
Me: Whatever.

Halfway through the journey.

Me: I'm not having a conversation with her later. You do all the talking.
Mom: Oh, ok. *Surprisingly she was quite understanding about it. Guess she learns to tell when her son isn't feeling upbeat and cheery*

It doesn't need to be said that in the end, I did all that I didn't want to do and more. Luckily I didn't need to talk much anyway cuz Auntie was busy stuffing me with food.

The things ppl will do to you when you're too thin.

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

Flow Go Go

Fingers were really itchy, so in the end I installed the wretched game and played DOTA. Went through a lot of effort to get the damn game but I just had to have it no matter what.

Played a few hours before going over to Crissy's for her open house cuz her sis is getting married. Invitation says arrive at 8pm. I got there bout 840pm and yet, the rest of our her friends hasn't even arrived yet. I should know better, sigh. In the end, I even spent most of the night fixing her computer for her. Talk about excitement.

The rest of the them arrived bout 930pm and I realised, well, they're all her friends. Or at least, her bf's friends whom she's very accustomed to hanging out with. I also realised that couple's tend to have other couple frends, and they feel the need to shove their relationship down other ppl's throat. How rude and nauseating... Not that I have anything against her or her bf or her couple-ish friends, well, I just don't like having to hang around ppl I hardly know.

Anyway, as I was fixing the computer, they were trying to poke fun at me while I was trying to, well, get down to work. Guess I haven't change since secondary high. I remember angelus once commented that I tend to be very tensed up and serious whenever I'm doing a presentation. These days, I have a lot more control over it if I consciously and deliberately try to lighten up but catch me unaware, you'll have to suffer through my grave and sullen expression.

BTW, I promised a review on MI3 a few days ago. Well, forget it. No matter what I say ppl are gonna watch it anyway so go and judge for yourself. For what it's worth, I still don't like Tom Cruise (how can anyone like him anymore) but Keri Russell doesn't look too shabby in the movie considering she's bleeding in 99% of her scenes. Michelle Monaghan is fine. Maggie Q just sucks. Jonathan Rhy Myers is ok but sometimes look weird. Ving Rhymes is cool and funny so we're good.

Nuff said. Tink I'll move along. Adios!

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Friday, May 05, 2006

Hyper

My nose is running and my hand can't stop shaking. The mouse cursor vibrates when I try to point. I try my hardest to concentrate and then click on the link. It's now 3am and I just came back.

I just had a cyber session and I'm still high, the adrenaline still coursing through my veins. My fingers twictching and I can't keep my head still.

U'd think I just popped crystal meth or something, but no, I just had a few games of DOTA, a variation of Warcraft III. Yes, it's addictive and at three o' clock in the morning, sleep it the furthest thing from my mind.

God, there's a good reason why I've avoided this game whenever I good and this is it.

My arms and fingers is slowly coming back to me. I'm much closer to my usual 45 WPM (words per minute) now, but occasionally me becomes mme.

Damn, I'm so out of it. Unconsciously, my mouth is still agape, taking rhythmic deep breathes.

*Closes eyes and holds breathe, index finger twitches unwillingly*

I know I promised a review on MI3. I swear it's coming soon. Just as soon as I feel like writing it, lol.

For now, I just pray I'm not back in the cyber cafe playing that wretched game tomorrow.

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Bed Head and Breakfast

Let's see, it's 245pm now and I just crawled out of bed a few minutes ago. I'm not very proud of myself but it just so happen that I took a four hour nap yesterday and couldn't sleep till 5 in the morning. Well, in any case, I did use my sleepless night productively.

There was the usual, chatting, surfing, news reading but I wrapped it all up with the anime movie Fullmetal Alchemist: The Conqueror of Shambala. It was ok. Not exactly mind blowing but a good watch anyway, especially if you've seen the series and want more.

Anyway I do realise that I should actually be looking for lunch instead of blogging but I just don't know where to start. Called a fren earlier but he already had lunch. I wasn't surprised, afterall it's almost 3pm. Those who haven't had lunch probably don't plan to anyway. Which reminds me that this is a good opportunity to diet. However, the question is, should I?? Hehe....... ok ok, don't scream at me. I know I'm thin enough already but eating haven't been able to solve my weight issues so far. Not eating won't have any effect either.

And damn it, why hasn't anyone msged me on MSN. My nick's already screaming for attention and yet these ppl continue to ignore me. Damn them!

BTW, gonna be watching MI: III tonight, after which I will have a license to lambast Tom Cruise, Katie Holmes (for her association with the aforementioned) and Maggie Q (ugggghhhh). Still undecided about Keri Russell while Michele Monaghan is kinda pretty, hehe.

Think I'll give Jilly-boo a call now for a little pity and sympathy, also possibly for a lunch companion. Till later!

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Black Tuesday

Ever since I've been home, I've experienced spikes of anger. Even the smallest thing will provoke me. Think it's the result of all the pent up bitterness inside of me.

I'm starting to consider that I should go back to KL at the end of the week. At least when I'm back there I don't have to deal with all the stuff back home. Don't have to please anyone but myself.

I hate this negativity. And more importantly, I hate myself now.

Posted by loopy at 11:54 pm | | Comments

Monday, May 01, 2006

Caught in *cough* Poses

Think it's about time I spruce things up with some pictures. These were taken some time ago. Finally got around to do some touching up. Here it is.









Me and three lovely ladies. Best friends I know. Glad to have them in my life. Here's hoping they don't mind staying in it for time to come.

Suddenly, I feel like such a lucky guy, haha...

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