in the Loop

Loopy's Young Love



I can't stop Find(ing) A New Way.

Got home from a long day of class. And here I am, alone again.



Just this morning I had thought that I wouldn't mind living this way for the rest of my life, carefree with commitments.



Now I'm feeling blue as ever... Sigh.



It's funny how fast perceptions change. Well, I guess I shouldn't be surprised either. They don't call me fickle minded for nothing.



And I'm pretty sure my playlist ain't helping either.



I wonder what will make me happy, for good. No more feeling blue. No more feeling sad. No more feeling disappointed. No more feeling lost.



I wonder if there is that one thing that will make one happy no matter what the circumstances may be. I wonder if I will ever have it.

Since January is Technology Across Borders month (ok, I made that up), I decided to do my part to promote the responsible use of technology.



Here's an excerpt of my conversation with my sis:



loopy says:

wat ru doing?



Sis says:

calculating my budget



Sis says:

what time r we going for dinner?



loopy says:

up to you lar



Sis says:

we going around 7:30pm, when i am done with this





At 7.30pm



loopy says:

Let's go now



Sis says:

Ok





Then I walk out of my room as my sis is just exiting hers and we went for a silent dinner.



There you have it boys and girls. How technology can help you avoid arguments and unnecessary friction. Not to mention foster "close" family ties, just an instant message away.



Sis says:

I'm going to bed d. Turn off the lights.



loopy says:

ok

I highly recommend everyone who has the time to watch this.



http://www.komotv.com/home/video/5001856.html?video=YHI />

"Kiri Davis is a young filmmaker whose high school documentary has left
audiences at film festivals across the country stunned -- and has
re-ignited a powerful debate over race."



I gasped and my heart ached too.

Even though it's not the most convenient of timing, but some thoughts always strike me as I'm navigating the Malaysian traffic - read: driving.



Not convenient because I cannot blog about them immediately and because it's difficult to concentrate on the road when my mind's floating high in the clouds...



My wondering thoughts for the day had led me to this.





Three things to achieve before 30

1. Own a flat-panel tv (Plasma or LCD)
2. Drive a car with GPS Navigation
3. Able to be myself under all circumstances
   
   

I think I may have been caught on a traffic camera, but I'm not sure.... And the uncertainty is bugging me. I can't stop thinking about it.



They just installed the traffic camera today so I was caught off guard. I noticed it when I saw flashes of light and quickly reduced my speed but then, it went off again. The limit was 80kmph and I was slightly over 80. Usually though, there is a 10km/h allowance so I'm not sure if it was me or the car in front.



Even though there's nothing else I can do about it, I still can't help but think about it. This sucks.... And gosh, if it was me, I'm in for a whole lot of nagging when the summons arrive...

I think I've grown a little younger. So I still dislike rap and hip hop but I have developed a liking for the newest sensation that's been sweeping the tweens crowd, youtube.



For reason unknown to me, I had a very good connection to youtube yesterday so I started watching one video after another and another. I just got so addicted to it.



Anyway I class this morning was canceled but replaced with some stupid function which I skipped, so I got to sleep in.



Ok, no more mood to write. So there.

Am I right right? Or am I wrong?



Today I had a presentation on media and communication issues. Being the group leader, I had made sure that everything was complete, even helped the girl was who supposed to present by giving her some pointers. I'm glad she agreed to present even though her English isn't perfect but I'm a firm believer that we all deserve opportunities.



Although we kinda expected that some other group would pick the same topic (the communication fiasco due to the Taiwan earthquake), we were still horrified when the second group presented the exact same topic.



Immediately, we panicked. I told the presenter that she should focus on a the elements that the previous group missed out in order to give it a distinct angle and rattled off some examples.



"But I didn't really go through those topics. I expected it to be something very brief and general."



In the end, she went ahead with her prepared text before passing the mic to me to highlight the issues. After all, I did do the particular topic and didn't have much problem rattling off the information from the top of my head.



From the feedback, we didn't do badly at all but that's not the thing that's bothering me.



The question I keep asking myself is that, did I over-react? Should I have just let her present it as it is, after all we did anticipate this initially. Am I being over-competitive? Does everything need to be a competition? Did I really have to try to outshine others? And does everyone now thinks of me as some maniac who just needs to win??



That was just issue number one. Here comes two.



Since we're all going for our internship next semester, all everyone is talking about these days is exactly just that.



Below is a conversation I had with two friends.



A: Where are you going?

Me: Probably advertising.

B: Which firm?

Me: Errm, not sure. Don't remember already (lie!).

B: So fast forget meh....



(Catching on)

Me: No, what I mean is... it's something like BBD or DDB, not very sure. (Can't stop now)



A: Oh, I think they have a PR firm too... *conversation continues between A and B*



Honestly, I don't know why I lie... Ok, I do have a few ideas, but I'm not sure which is the main reason, or if there are any other subconscious excuse.



Truth is, I just don't feel like telling ppl that trying to go to advertising and even more so telling them it's Naga DDB that I'm trying for.



Maybe I just don't want competition, or maybe I just afraid that they will ask me to apply as well. Or maybe it's god damn embarrassing to count your eggs only to have none of them hatch - read: If I tell everyone I'm going there and don't get in, it will be very humiliating.



So should I be acting this way? Or is there a better way to go around it? I just dunno what to think anymore. I know I'm no philanthropist and I've labeled myself a selfish bastard numerous times, but to have it staring in my face is something else.



Sigh... Wouldn't it be so much easier if we didn't have to compete with our frens? Then I can step on as many toes as I want without giving a shit... Well, it's just business.

As I'm typing this, a car alarm is ringing in the background, like a bad record. Some car alarms are highly sensitive and easily triggered, in this case by thunder. Considering it's been more than an hour already, I highly suspect said owner must have been struck by the lightning...



Anyway I was in uni today even though it's a Saturday. We're having a photo exhibition on Mon so was there setting up. Will have to go again tmr to finish up. Unfortunately, I injured my middle finger and it bled a little. Though it doesn't really hurt as it is, every keystroke I make delivers a slight pain... not fun.



Also, I'm planning to go home on Thursday. Need to tailor a pair of decent pants for my impending interview. Though having an impression of an ass isn't critical to getting the job, it sure as hell wouldn't hurt, lol.

sucks big time.



It has the most cliched story ever with an equally predictable and unimaginative script. I could basically finish the sentences for ALL the characters.



With the big budget, you'd think they'd at least can afford a more attractive cast but nope, no eye candy either.



Pathetic!

Sometimes you think everything is fine, that you've dealt and coped. But the truth is, you've just bottled it up and applied the fine art of compartmentalising.



So volatile... that one little stimuli can push it over the edge and immediately flooding your senses. Then it's over. Just like that, leaving you wondering where it all came from in the first place.



And you also wonder, again, if this time, it's truly over... that you've dealt with it. You convince yourself you have.

Ok, I'm exaggerating. It's not really that bad but it's hardly enjoyable. I've kinda forgot how this life is after enjoying myself in Ipoh for a month and a half.



Anyway, I'll try to keep to good thoughts here.



1. Had an amazing holiday!! Chilled like there's no tomorrow.

2. Spent a lot of quality time with family. Again, best time ever.

3. Vacation in Penang, I went para-sailing!!

4. Didn't have to worry about finances cuz well, Ipoh's dirt cheap and staying at home everyday and having someone buy me food does have its perks, lol.



In conclusion, all time best holiday ever. Look forward to it again next yr!